time doesn't feel real to me
maybe it's because nothing does
wait
let's backtrack
some things feel real to me:
warm weather
hot
sunny
weather
it's too warm
the sun is too bright
but it has a way of reminding me
I'm alive
laughter
laughs of my favorite people
my friends
my family
echoing in my ears
surrounding me
kind of like an embrace
but time
doesn't
feel
real
for example:
today is thursday
but it feels like the last few days
were all one
it shouldn't be thursday
it's sunday in my head
although
that's coming from a girl
who sometimes doesn't believe she's alive
because life doesn't seem real either
I sometimes think I died a long time ago
and this is just my endless purgatory
what an odd combination:
never ending purgatory and false time
it just continues until actual death
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