forcing the blood in my veins
to pump a million miles a second,a titan of colossal weight is sitting on my chest. I can’t begin to
inhale any oxygen
through the entrance of
my lungs.
every single inch of
my extremities
starting with my
index,
to my middle,
to my ring and pinky,
ending with my thumb
start to lose feeling.
my legs can no
longer hold the
weight of my body
combined with this
substantial burden.
my vision starts to blur
as my breathing
starts to hitch inside my throat.
the world becomes dark
while everything starts
to feel as though it means
nothing.
I try to relax my mind
and ease the invasive
& intrusive thoughts
as they cloud
my vision and force
me to solely focus on
them.
inhale.
exhale.
scream.
cry.
that’s all I can do.
that’s all I can ever do.
one day the weight will lift,
but until then, I have to just
hold it with all I have.
